they say quitters never win, but we walk the plank on a sinking ship;

[tiny_ninja]

Welcome to WIP Wednesday, I'm the author, Amie, who is trying to figure out how not to toss out my entire story and start all over again!

Okay, it's not that drastic, but I have been struggling to get Ninjetti down on paper all month. I'm getting words, sure, but I'm not getting anywhere. I was originally just going to break off the beginning and turn them into one shots, but I think I'm going to do that with the entire existing outline. That way I can write what I absolutely have to (considering I am a long, long ways away from posting any of it) and try to set myself up for starting Infinity War in November. Hopefully. As long as editing is still progressing, I'm hoping that November will be revisions and/or moving forward. I'll reevaluate depending on what the second round of edits will look like.

I did hit my goal for Camp today, though, so I can shift my focus back to editing more. I was able to get a chunk done on Monday while waiting for my car, and I'll start going back to an hour a day when I work. Hoping that means I'd get through edit #1 before the end of summer.

I also have a really great idea I'm working on for press_start_comm! Couldn't resist starting that already. It has a mini outline and the first section done, though I think it'll need a good revision before posting. I may also have some treat ideas, but this is looking like a longer fic than required - I sneeze and more than 1000 words happens in a fic - so I'd rather have one solid fic than stretching myself to write more if they're just going to be mediocre. That's something I'll worry about come August.

But since I've been struggling for words... I let myself start one of the one shots for my PR/MCU universe. It's nothing but filth. I'm not even sorry. AJ and Jason have been wanting to fool around since I started writing them in April, lol, so it was a long time coming. I'll likely finish this one shot, and then shift back to Ninjetti proper and pick up at a more "exciting" part. Here's a snippet!

Her hand drifted lower, wandering over his waistband and tracing the bulge beneath. Now it was Jason’s turn to moan, drawing in a hissing breath. “And what if I wanted to tease you back?”

“You don’t have to.”

“May I?”

The look in her eyes, dark in the dim light from the TV and so full of desire, had him weak in the knees. Who knew he had a thing for proper consent? “Yes.”

She grinned, wickedly, tugging his shorts down. With her perched on his lap, it wasn’t like there was a ton of room between them, but that wasn’t about to stop her. AJ curled a hand around him, giving him a slow stroke.

And just like that, she had the upper hand.

The last couple weeks have been shitty, real life wise. My muses are the one thing I can look forward to cheering myself up when I'm feeling down, which is a lot right now. I don't care if this shit is self-indulgent. If it keeps me in a better headspace, I'm all for it.

Comments

[runicmagitek]

I'm so glad you're using that icon omg XD

Now yo've mentioned November and I'm just uuuuuughh..... I don't know if I can even do actual NaNo this year -_-

YAY FOR HITTING GOAL! :D So proud of you! *chucks confetti everywhere* best of luck with your edits, too ♥ that sounds like a solid plan, but don't forget to not push yourself too much (source: me, the person who once binge edited in 8 hours and then proceeded to revisit that chapter a year later and was all "wtf is this flaming garbage")

I can't wait to see what you do for Press Start! :D :D I hope you have a blast with it! I still need to crank out my assignment and then go for there. I'm hoping to do at least one (1) treat. Mostly because of my health being awful, but also because the Octopath muses are still screaming and dry humping my leg :|

Little oneshots like that are such a treat and really do help break through the pseudo-monotony of working on a single thing. And I love your snippet ;D so spicy! I can't wait to read more of those two. Legit. They make me grin and munch popcorn.

I'm sorry life has been shitty :( also same. It's like... both sweet and kinda depressing when the only thing you're looking forward to is writing, because these nerds make you happy. Did you see the thing I reblog on tumblr about- fuck it, I'm just sending it to you, even if you saw it. LET US BE SELF-INDULGENT AND ROLL IN THE THINGS THAT MAKE US HAPPY, DAMN IT ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

[tiny_ninja]

It was one of my favorite icons from your last set and so accurate for how I currently feel ♥

Then don't! Set a smaller goal for yourself, whether that's "finish one story" or a lower word count goal. It's all fucking arbitrary anyway, and though I like accomplishing the 50k, I also know it's going to be 50k overall, not 50k on a single project. I am amazed I was able to do that in April, and my writing pace was insane for what I normally do. I'll settle for 50k and forward progress on my current project, whatever it is I decide to do then.

Thanks bb! ♥ I mean... the hour a day I spend editing is on the paper copy. When I transfer the edits into Scrivener, that's when I get to my "wtf? were you asleep when you wrote this?" thoughts XD I promise I'm taking care of myself. I had been pushing like hell on my breaks to write, write, write, and I need to stop that.

It's fun so far! This year was the year I learned I love fic exchanges, lol. I hope the recipient likes what I've come up with as well :3 I hope the Octopath muses leave you alone long enough to get your projects finished!

And yessssss. There are a lot of ideas for scenes that don't "fit" with any of the novel plotlines, but are still really great character building/things I want to write. So I made a separate Scrivener file for them, separated by what point they occur in the timeline. I figure I can post them all as a series and keep a master post somewhere. The tone of the novels don't (at this point anyway) lend themselves to including straight up smut, but I'm still gonna write it. ;)

*snugs for you too bb* Yeah, being an adult with responsibilities sucks. I could whine about it here, but it's done now and I'm on vacation starting next weekend, so I'll focus on that instead. Trying to focus on putting out good energy where I can and let shit go if I can't. Until then, I'm gonna write the things that make me happy and fuck everyone who doesn't like it.

[runicmagitek]

Honestly, I've been leaning more towards not doing NaNo this year :\ I think what's making me so torn is that I really do love the community aspect of it and I've met some close friends thanks to NaNo. But with work requiring way more mental energy and my health being questionable on a day-to-day basis, I legit do not know if I can handle 1667 words a day, let alone any level of overachieving. And maybe I need a fucking break from that, because while it is stupid rewarding to be like, "Shit, I just banged out 50k/100k in a month," I also need to respect the fact my body is being figuratively held together by duct tape and hope at the moment and I should be Damn Fucking Proud that I'm able to keep a consistent writing routine at all.

Or who knows, maybe I get cranking on my Octopath OTP fic and then I'll go into manic overdrive and crap out 200k in two months or something, so... yeah. Stay tuned.

Also thanks for the support and letting me vent about this. It's a hard topic for me to wrestle with in general, but I legit appreciate you being there every step of the way ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

OH that's right you're still doing the readthrough edit pfff yeah, an hour a day sound feasible :D I'm also the same way with my breaks uuuugh I need to mix it up so I play games or even read a book on my break, but more often than not, I just can't brain when I get home after work. Bleh. Curse adulting.

YAS WRITE IT ;D you know you wanna!!!!

I'm super proud of you taking care of yourself and plowing through adulting like a boss. It's definitely not easy and learning to let shit go and just move along is stupid hard, but I like to think it's worth it. You don't need other people's bullshit getting you down. You're too damn fabulous for that ♥

[tiny_ninja]

I think it's wise of you to understand your physical and mental limitations, and rather than take on too much, to work with them and find a balance. Perhaps that balance changes every November (and I hate that it's always November. Like, everyone's lives are fucked in November. Do us a solid and put it in September instead.) I also hate the term NaNo Rebel, but we both know you'll be writing something. No one says you can't participate in NaNo things while working on your own shit, not the goal they suggest for you. I know you're not keen on write-ins, but maybe still chatting about writing things in the forums so you can still get that community aspect?

(You're always welcome to come vent to me bb! That's what braintwins are for! ♥ ♥ ♥ )

The good news is that the readthrough edit and the digital edit are at about the same pace - I've only read a few scenes further than the digital version. I figured this was easier so 1. I count any new words added as I go and 2. then I'm not looking at hours more work to transcribe 400 pages of work. (I wish I were kidding.) My after work time is often spent saying, "I'm going to write!" and then staring off into space and writing nothing.

...Or games for the kids. Which are whatever fucking games I want to play that are somewhat kid appropriate.

Thanks bb ♥ idk if I'm doing it right but I'm trying. I'm also going to shut off all of my work group chats while I'm on vacation and if they have anything they reaaaaaaaaally need to talk to me about, they can text me directly and I'll deal with it then. No more guilt that isn't mine. No more worrying that isn't mine either.